Shelf-Life (Journal 5) – Sean Colligan

“Basically, we’re just waiting at this point.” The doctor spoke with unmistakable aggravation, but Parker could ignore it. He was just as annoyed.
“We’ve got him on a coolant IV, but once it runs out, he’ll overheat and the failsafe shutdown procedure starts. He could be repaired, but not flying in the necessary parts. Not to mention tracking down enough donors willing to donate to save a cyborg.” He stopped himself after the last word, facing Parker with an embarrassed look
“Sorry,” he continued, expecting an offensive outburst from Parker.
“It’s alright. You let him in here, that’s more than enough.”
“So, I’m assuming you want to go ahead and…”
“Pull the plug?” Parker could tell he wanted to say it. “I think so.”
“I just had to hear it from you.”
“Why me? Doesn’t he have anybody else?”
“Apparently not. The only name he would give when he was asked about relatives or other relations was yours.” Parker didn’t know how to respond, so he let the doctor finish.
“You can go ahead in and see him now if you want.”
“Sure,” Parker replied. “That’s why I’m here.”

Parker couldn’t help but think the heart rate monitor was overkill, at least for this situation. But it’s what Henry wanted; and it was that reason that Parker was here to see him and that he was in the hospital at all. A fall from the top of a twenty story building would have killed any human being, but Henry was an exception. This was mostly because whatever organic material he had in his body was surrounded and augmented by some of the best technological hardware science had to offer. Parker had no idea when he was built, and in fact knew nothing about him other than he performed clerical work in the same office as him. But he had specifically requested to be taken to the hospital once the paramedics arrived, and he had specifically requested that Parker be contacted once he got there.
“Am I going to die?” Henry finally said, his mouth moving with less human-like precision than usual.
“I think so, yeah.” Parker replied. He wouldn’t bother with pleasantries; who would with a cyborg?
“Good,” Henry replied. That caught Parker off guard.
“Good?” he said, barely containing his shock. “How is that good?”
“You don’t understand, do you? I jumped from that window, Parker.”
“Why?”
“Franz Kafka once said, ‘a first sign of the beginnings of awareness is the wish to die’. I needed everyone to know I was human.”

 

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Reckoning (Journal 4)

Sean Colligan – Prompt 3f

“Mr. Paulson,” the voice on his answering machine growled and burrowed in Nick’s ears like immovable worms. “It appears as if the warnings you received were not enough to dissuade you from the pursuing the nature of the…incident in Zurich. I’m afraid you’ve left us with no choice but to act as we see fit. I won’t waste any more tape space; I have no reason to believe you’ll even be alive to hear this entire message. Goodbye.”

As soon as the tape ended, Nick jerked his glance toward his front door as a loud knock echoed through the apartment. He slowly approached the peephole as the knock came again. Two men in ski masks; he was expecting Harvey’s men to be a little more original. Before he could back away, his intercom buzzed. After he could no longer stand the sustained tone, he held his finger on the center button to listen to whoever was on the other end.

“Nick?” a snide voice asked after a few moments. “You there?”Nick knew the voice, and he let out a silent expletive as he remembered: Perry.
“Surprise, asshole!” Perry continued. “Come on, I know you can hear me. The guys outside your door already know you’re in there, buddy, we’ve been trailing you for days. I was expecting you had better taste in safehouses.” Nick couldn’t stand this crap anymore, so he finally allowed himself to answer.
“I thought I left you dead in Bolivia, you prick,” he said, surprised at how well he masked his unbridled contempt.
“Funny thing, that” Perry responded. “I was playing dead. That’s how a set-up works, genius. I play my part to get you just calm enough to let your guard down for a few seconds. It worked, didn’t it?” Nick felt his pulse spike.
“Look,” Perry continued. “I’d love to keep up the chitchat, but me and my friends don’t have a lot of time, unfortunately. Why don’t you make it easy on yourself and just sit back and let them…do their work.”

The intercom switched off, and after a pause, Nick heard a boot slamming against the door to force it open. He backed away to the wall at the opposite end of the den, just in time to notice another assailant climbing up the fire escape outside. Before he could shoot, Nick smashed his elbow and grabbed the man’s arm with the loaded pistol still held. As the door flew open, Nicked forced the man’s finger to squeeze the trigger and take the two men out. He then disarmed the one by the window and finished him with a clean headshot.

Perry would have to do better than that.

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Journal 2

- Trapped in an elevator, alone, with a person you would walk across the street to avoid. -

I know it sounds like I’m starting a joke when I say Adam Sandler walked into an elevator with me. However, it’s anything but. I was in L.A. for one weekend at a conference and it just so happened that the one celebrity in or out of that fancy Hilton was none other than the Waterboy himself. He jogged in just before the door started closing and pressed the button for his floor; 2 above mine.

As we started moving, I couldn’t help but notice his attire: a clearly often-worn Yankees cap, sneakers, jeans and a t-shirt beneath a blazer. I guess if I wanted to feel like one of the common folk, I would have taken a similar approach. He gave a quick glance back toward me, but we didn’t even make eye contact, so I thought nothing of it.

Suddenly, we stopped moving. Adam punched the button again, but nothing happened.
“You think we’re stuck?” I asked after a lengthy pause.
“Yeah,” he replied. “But I’ve been to this place before. Sometimes the elevators do this.”
I was surprised that he would be so familiar with one particular hotel; he probably stays in more than I have in my lifetime in a week.

To my surprise, he turned back to me.
“So, what are you around for?” With only a brief hesitation, I responded.
“Uh, work.”
“Oh, that big IT thing going on downstairs?”
“Yeah.”
“I could hear the karaoke all the way up in my room, you guys sure know how to party.”
“Yeah, well, I guess anyone knows once they get sauced enough.”
We shared a snicker, and I figured I might as well go for it.
“So, here’s something I’ve been wondering: what’s Paul Thomas Anderson like as a director?” At first I couldn’t tell if he was pleased or disappointed that I had asked the question, and his first response didn’t give me much of a hint.
“Huh, well…Sorry if I’m a little slow, I don’t get many questions about Punch Drunk Love.”
“Ah, I see. I thought you were great in it, by the way,” I couldn’t help it.
“Thank you. Well, he definitely knows exactly what he wants, and sometimes it can be a little trying, but it in the end it’s usually for the best.”

A solid answer. Perhaps he didn’t act like a 3-year-old in his off-screen life. I figured I ought to have asked the next question earlier.
“So, what are you here for?”
“Visiting somebody.”
“Who’s that?”
“Rob Schneider.” I almost gagged, but the elevator started again.

The doors opened as we reached his level, and he started out.
“Nice meeting you,” he said.
“You too.” Before he rounded the corner out of sight, I couldn’t help but ask the next question.
“Hey!” He stopped. “How much did you get for Jack and Jill?”
“Enough for that second swimming pool!” he responded just as the doors closed. I couldn’t help but let a smirk break across my face. Cheeky bastard.

-Sean Colligan

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Nectar

A label that boldly boasts it can
take me  swiftly away.
Not only survive the next long hour,
but the eternity of a day.

A shining cocoon of polished glass
reveals the source of its heft.
The shimmering lake of brown comfort
that calms each troubled breath.

The grip and twist of a cheap tin cap
releases its beauty not seen.
The steady smell of ancient peat
that soothes every inch of me.

As I pour it from its prison and into my glass,
watching the ice float as I sit,
it becomes overwhelmingly obvious to me
that I am not the one who owns it.

-Sean Colligan

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A Force For Good

Even I couldn’t slip the draft
They must have been desperate
To reach out all the way
To my corner of the universe
But like all the others
I ended up at basic
Screamed at and humiliated
With all the timid farmboys
Remembering I used to be one of them

And just like them I was shipped out
Before I could blink
I made the same landing everyone else made
That first step off the chopper
Into the mud and sweat and heavy trees
And the faces you got
From the guys who had been there the longest
That told you you weren’t making it
Past the first week

I’m still glad I left my weapon of choice behind
A lot of good a giant beam of sound and color
Would do me out here anyway
VC scouts could drop you from a mile off
If you breathed hard enough

This wasn’t the war I come from
Where waves of obvious evil came directly into your sights
This was a vicious game
Where the enemy just has to wait
For you to lose your nerve
And get lost in the jungles
They’ve been using for generations

But I still find ways to gain the upper hand
Once I set off a line of claymores
With a twitch of my finger
After an NVA patrol was so careful to avoid them
And I lifted Sarge’s jeep when it sank into the muck
Just by putting up my arm
Sensei would’ve pissed himself if he saw that one
That got me promoted to Captain quick enough
Last time that happened
I had to blow up a battle station

Those stunts have landed me a few friends here
And not the kind you don’t want, either
The ones that have gotten way too comfortable
And treat this place like it’s a God damn summer camp
I mean the ones who really do their best to cover you
The ones you can smoke a joint with after a sweep and clear
And honestly believe you’ve known them
Longer than your best friends back home
This place does that to you
Years go by in just a few weeks

My tricks aren’t always so well-received, though
We were pinned down once
A couple heavy machine gun nests outside this village
Keeping us back behind the treeline

Right as I saw a VC pull the pin on a grenade
I stared straight at him
I don’t think he ever saw me
But he did what I told him to
Almost 50 yards away
Fighting hard as he could
He shoved the grenade in his mouth
I could’ve sworn it was halfway down his throat
Before it went off

The shrapnel took out the gunner next to him
But the others stopped firing anyway
First, there was this red, misty cloud
Like he just evaporated
Then, all there was was this circle
Of vaporized red and black flesh
Almost 20 feet in every direction
Eerie and even
That got the squad freaked out

Then
Same day, same village
After we’d cleared the hostiles
Guys in the squad start gathering up villagers
Mothers, daughters, farmers the NVA held hostage
They put them in different buildings
And torched ‘em
No reason

I had no idea until I heard the screams
And then it was too late
When I saw the bodies swallowed by the flames
All I could see
Were my aunt and uncle

So I turned to Perry,
The first one I saw with a flamethrower
And squeezed his throat without touching him
I felt his lungs fighting for air
Felt his life leaving him
As his eyes rolled to the back of his skull
But when the CO came back
I let him drop
And said he was in shock
Perry never looked at me again

Ben would have a thing or two to say
If he knew about that stuff
But when you’ve spent as much time here
As I have
That sage crap goes out the window
There’s no good or dark side here
All there is
Is making it to the next day

I’ve been doing that well enough
I’m better with an assault rifle
Than I ever was with a blaster
And I don’t even care
If we don’t make any difference here
There’s no way we will
The only thing that really gets me
Is that I brought a galaxy back from the brink
And even I couldn’t slip the draft

-Sean Colligan

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Blink

It starts with a breath
Usually mid-sentence
Mid-phrase
Mid-word
Mid-syllable
A fraction of a fraction of a second

Then the lids move
Slow but instantaneous
Exposing raw skin
Untouched by the make-up
That shines like glass
In the humid night
Each defined line, crease, wrinkle
Human

They open again
Eyes still shimmering
From the gathered moisture
Until pale brown rings
Reveal themselves suddenly
Against a white vacuum
The way stars form

She repeats this
More than anyone can count
And I never once
Think to thank her

-Sean Colligan

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